ALIVE

I made it back from Palm Springs alive.

This may not seem like a major feat to some but I could have died.

I went to Palm Springs with my guy, his friend and the wife of his friend. On Saturday the girl and I planned to go shopping, the guys went to play golf. The girl and I got severely lost, then got bad directions. We ended up circling the San Bernandino Mountains, in the middle of a storm. We were traveling on a two lane, windy road, at 4000 feet, with nowhere to go but down if we slipped. The signs said "icy" and "rock slide area."

We were told that if we took the 74 we would travel for about 15 minutes and end up at the 10 freeway and could head back to the freeway and be about 20 minutes from the shopping stores. We thought about turning around and asked a man how far was the freeway, he looked at his map and said about 10 miles. Well about 70 miles later we were still driving, we considered turning around but kept deciding not to because we had went so far and didn't know if the freeway would be the next mile. We finally got down off the mountain and found that we were 76 miles from San Diego.

We entered a town that appeared to be Mayberry, it was like a movie, both of us envisioned ourselves as the victims in the Texas Chainsaw Massacre.

The proprieter of the general store told us that the way we traveled was a short cut from San Diego to Palm Springs and that if we took the highway it would be a little over 2 hours but the mountainous route was 45 minutes. So we headed back the way we came, and went back into the storm and terrifying curves of the moutains. The drive was longer than 45 minutes, but perhaps because San Diego residents drive 100 at all times, it would be 45 minutes to them. If I had a picture you might be scared of the road we traveled. We were so close to the edge of the cliff, and looking down the rocky mountains, was the most frightening sensation I know.

On our way back to Palm Springs we drove through the arc of a rainbow. That was a awe inspiring experience. We were able to see where it began and ended and went underneath it. That must mean some sort of blessing on our lives.

Strangest thing about the route we took is that is was very well traveled, There was a constant stream of cars, speeding as if the rain and muddy roads didn't exist.

MY GUY

The fella and I are still together. We are still alive, he and I almost died, not from discovering that we were incompatible but from Nicole induced drama. But I won't get all mushy and detailed on my blog, but there really must be someone for everyone because he remains patient and rational throughout all the drama I bring, even when I have dramaed myself out.

A letter 2 Love...

Dear Love,

You are a tough nut to crack. I don't really understand you. It doesn't seem like anyone does. Lots of folks doubt you exist. Lots of folks search for you endlessly. Others are counting down the days until you disappear.

Sir Love, what is it about you that creates such strong emotion? Fear, happiness, joy, pain, you bring it all. Why do you have this effect on people? Is it because YOU are a four-letter word?

Everyone seems to want you. Some are jealous of you, some mistrust and some acknowledge their need for you. Love you've been very busy, everyone seems to have a story about you.

Love are you so powerful that you can really last forever and another day? That's what Stevie said. People make promises to take care of you, and keep you forever. Do some make that promise with the knowledge they won't keep it? do some really intend to keep it only to later realize you weren't there? Love do you really leave people? I can.not. believe that you would do that. I think if you come, you are permanent.

I am a firm believer in you Sir Love. I know there are those that pretend to be you, like Mr. Infatuation or even Desperation. They are dangerous and they know how to emulate you so well. I think they are the reasons people question your existence. They were fooled by the tions. Sir Love I think you are apparent and honest, and I think when you are there, you can't be denied.

Love are you aware that some folks use your name for power? It's awful but some use you to get sex, money, control.

I sigh because I respect you love, I was raised with you, taken care of because of you, had friends because of you, changed for the better by you, with the goal to always be better for you.

Love I think you are eternal, be you familial, romantic, friend or whatever, the memory of you extends past the life of those who possessed you.  I want you and I to last through forever and another day.