Misery Needs Company

I was trying to have a good day but it seemed folks were determined to push me off of my mountain.  In turn I ended up having an attitude with folks that didn't deserve it, namely my mother. I didn't have a bad attitude but any at-ti-tude is unnecessary. Its probably worse when folks are evil to folks who have no idea where the evil arose from.

Oh what a web bad moods weave.  If not careful misery can be contagious.  

Last week my father offered to  buy TR baby food. He asked me for a list. I made a table and told him she eats fruits, vegetables, rice cereal and oatmeal.  I also told him she is on stage 2.  He brought back lots of  baby food with meat and some vegetable items.

I guess he wanted a list to ignore.  He came in and proceeded to spend about 10 minutes insulting me. I wonder if I should tell him why his other children ignore his calls.  I would ignore his calls but my mother answers the phone without looking at caller i.d.

Some of the stuff he says might be acceptable if he had said them when I was a young person interested in listening.  I'm 30+.

I think much of his advice are based on his own regrets and failures. He wants to share his opinions on marriage, family and money.  I guess he can tell me what not to do, but he wants to tell me what TO do.

I'm pretty sensitive to the moods and vibes of folks I am close to.  I'm discovering this can be a bad thing when people enjoy being depressed.

I was visiting my cousins a couple of weeks ago and we were watching Charlie Brown. One of my cousins pointed out that that show had introduced depression to our generation.  I guess that's why I never liked the show. 

Anyway my emotions are just all discombobulated. I need to figure out how to remain emotionally unaffected by folks with misery in their aura. I really want TR to live in an emotionally well-balanced home. I want her to know we can experience sadness or low moments but we don't allow it to  control our life or diminish our spirit. 

I need to get my light back.