Self-Employment

In the month of October I have had one client pay me. He is working on a payment plan. Even my corporate client has failed to send my check. If I don't get it by November 1, I will be sending a final bill and a letter ending our relationship. People seem to think that I like to work, that the mere existence of a client spells success. I would prefer no client than a non-paying one. The non-pay person creates more work because then I have to do work to get rid of them. They don't seem to grasp that I work for money.

I have no idea how I've had money this month, where in the heck did it come from? Having non-paying or slow-paying clientele is a budgeting nightmare. I'm horrible with money management. I know what happened. I gave my financial whiz mother my money, so each time I needed more she had it to give.

But my non/slow paying clients has led me to seek a different type of client. I want to move away from small scale/individual transactions and get into goverment contracting. Crazy, because sometimes I get easily discouraged but this month of everybody acting crazy with my bills has encouraged me to think larger than what I had been thinking.

I'm going to be the rainmaker and hire people to do the work. Then I can focus my energy on my creative endeavors. I'm getting to old to be just the worker. I think that I'm beginning to be serious about life, not about my future, but about living fully in the present. I consider living fully to be working smart and reaping and enjoying the benefits or that work.

I also need to start paying my tithes again. My finances and my business was extremely blessed and then for some reason without even realizing it, I got stingy with God's money. Note to self, gladly pay tithes each week.